11th Mar 2010
Filling in the blanks
Towards the end of the last year I had bragged about some new year resolutions. One of them was that I would be posting more frequently here. Well it has been about 2.5 months since my last post. Not good going. The status of the rest of the resolutions are very similar, if not worse. I am taking solace in that it seems to be a universal problem
One of the reasons of me not being able to keep with any of things that I wanted to do was my illness. I have been having a series of throat infections starting from mid December of last year. After the first infection subsided I got an even worse condition known as peritonsillar abscess (PTA), which is much rare compared to tonsillitis but far more painful and serious. The condition consists of infection on the backside of the tonsils which forms an abscess which is filled with puss. If not treated, there is a chance that it might even lead to death. I was put on antibiotics which did not help. So the doctor gave me steroids and stronger antibiotics which seemed to work. But I got another infection as soon as the current infection subsided. This time even antibiotics and steroids weren’t helping. So the doctor had to make a small cut into the throat and drain the puss. It was extremely painful and I almost fainted. I think it was the incompetence of the doctor that caused most of the pain. To top it all, when I was standing dazed from all the pain and blood oozing down my mouth, he was trying to persuade me to do a tonsillectomy as soon as possible. I wanted to kick his balls so hard that he would spit them out.
I decided to switch doctors and I really have to thank God that I found a very good doctor (Dr. Sunil Ummat from Northwest Face in Kirkland). He had to do another draining but this time the it was almost painless. This is one of the times where I recognized the importance of seeing a good doctor, I swear that the difference is like night and day. The problem with peritonsillar abscess is that once you get a PTA, the structure of your tonsils have forever changed – they are never the same again. There is a good chance that you can another abscess and there is no way to prevent it other than staying healthy and making sure you don’t get a throat infection. That is like trying to prevent a common cold. You can only do so much. Many doctors suggest a wait and see approach while others recommend a tonsillectomy. Usually it is up to the patient to make the decision and Dr.Ummat did the same. I was not sure. I did not want to go through a PTA again but I was quite afraid of doing a surgery. Dr. Ummat was very patient and explained all the pro and cons to me. After a couple of weeks of deliberation I decided to do the tonsillectomy. I had it done last thursday. Today is the 8th day after the surgery and I am doing pretty well now. I haven’t fully recovered yet, but the pain is mostly gone (I am still on pain medication though) and I have started eating soft foods. Cant talk much either. One of the (positive) side effects of the surgery is that I lost 14 pounds in less than a week
I am not making any more promises now about frequent blogging and reading books and learning technologies. I am going to take life as it comes because if there is one thing that I have learned so far from 31 years of life it is that you can’t really expect life to go the way you want it to (that is not to say that I am not in a bad position today, but I have had so many deviations from where I expected to go in life). I am starting the see the value of the Zen approach of going with the flow and taking it easy and enjoying life while I can.
These thought are not caused by the bitter experience of my recent illness or because I believe I have achieved enlightenment but these are thoughts that have been shaping up for several years now. I have been reading a book called Power of Less recently and I very much like the idea of minimalism. I have hundreds of books. More than I can read in my lifetime, but I just keep on buying more. Now I think what I love is not the books, but the experience of buying them. Just the way women love to shop for clothes. I used to scour over Amazon for several hours a day for books that I don’t have, all the while having on my shelf several hundred books that are in the “must read” category. Now that I have identified a problem, I have decided to fix it buy not buying more books but by reading the books that I already bought. I think that having a few good things and enjoying them is far better than having lots of good things but never being able to enjoy them. I have decided to experience less number of things but to experience each more deeply. Let us see how it goes.
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